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So for all of you who are curious about how my blind date went... What can I say - except that I really embarrassed myself the WHOLE time that we were out... I was super-duper nervous, and wasn't sure how to act... it was funny though. It was a good night out. Went to Tim Hortons for coffee (there were 4 of us who went, me & gavin (my date) and my friend samantha and her boyfriend) We sat around laughing, drinking coffee, and just being really silly. We really got to know eachother. No... I'm not dating him! We are just friends, and thats all it will ever be. But the cool thing is, I made a new super cool friend. I'm happy about that... OH and my hair... I STILL LOVE IT!!! When I went and got it cut yesterday they took 4 inches off... and the coolest thing is, they have this stuff you can put in to your hair to make it straight - so you don't have to go out and buy a super expensive hair straightner... which I'm very excited about. I love it soooo much! (my mom ...

Spent the day with my best friend... got my hair done - cut and straightend... its soooooo soft! I absolutely LOVE it! :) plus the woman who cut my hair is amazing! and at this spa place they like spend a good 15min on washing your hair and just giving you a massage. it was FANTASTIC! something that I really needed... enjoy the pictures!

so since daryl and i broke up at the end of may my mom has been trying to hook me up with this guy... he's 29 and I have been told - from a friend of mine who is also working with my mom to try and get us together, that he is super nice, funny, and really super shy. So, my friend and her boyfriend, this guy that I am meeting and I are going on a double date tonight. I'm kinda really nervous and yet super excited to meet him and see what he is like, see what sort of stuff he is interested in and most of all to see where he stand with spiritual stuff. I'm not sure if he is a Christian or not, but tonight will be a night of exploring and talking and getting to know one another. Wish me luck. I haven't dated, or even really hung out with a guy since daryl and I broke up. So this is a step for me... a stretching experience. Anyways he is going to be here to pick me up at 8:15pm tonight to go for coffee. So I guess I better be off and get a few things done around the house be...

its been a while since I have gone out on a saturday night! never did anything spetacular, just went over to my friends new place that her and her boyfriend moved in to - its great! watched a bit of tv, joked around and just hung out and chatted, which we haven't done in a long time. I've sort of cut myself off from the world in a sense, sort of spending time with just "me" to grasp a hold of whats going on in my life... taking a deep breath and living my life from moment to moment, rather then living day by day, week by week, or month by month. Its a moment by moment thing right now... I was continually reminded today of how much people love me... It was said to me all through out the day. My best friend kept telling me it today all at work, how she appreciates me and loves me and how she just wouldn't know what to do if i wasn't working there for her, and with her... it made me feel so appreciated and wanted. Not that i am thinking of doing anything dumb, or...

currently listening to: Justin Timberlake - Losing My Way. Well I'm really ready to go to bed. But I wanted to quickly write before I head off for the night. Today was an alright day for me... worked from 11-7pm then went to band practice, which we didn't actually have. We all just sat there and prayed for one another and talked about worship and how worship comes from our heart and we are to worship in spirit and truth. And when our hearts aren't right before God then how are we to stand (sing, play piano, guitar) or sit (drum) when our hearts aren't right before our loving savior. This spoke to me a bit. I mean, sometimes there are days where i feel as if I am just so disconnected. But honestly, I don't know if its because of the Meds I am on, or if its because I have allowed myself get so wrapped up in this world and have lost my focus on my relationship with God. The thing for me is this... I love God with my heart. I see Him through this time in my life looking...

I have honestly been wanting to write something on here for a while now. Something would happen during the day, either really good - or bad, and i'd want to share it, but when I got home - the last thing that I've been wanting to do is blog about it all, because often these days my thoughts have been going a thousand miles a minute... and i have just been feeling so overwhelmed too. So overall, its just so hard to blog about everything all at once. Maybe in time I will... but for now, I'll keep everyone posted on how life goes, what i'm up to, and all that kinda stuff. but for now - this is it for tonight. blog soon, Michelle

Well I just thought I would quickly post an update tonight... So work has been going amazingly well. I am really enjoying my new position and I really see that God is really building up my leadership skills. Its great! Of course there are some tough days at work - but like any other job, there always is, but still - work is amazingly great. I love it, and I really honestly couldn't ask for a better job then I have right now at this present time in my life. I have surely been blessed! And I really honestly give God all the honor, praise and glory for it. Thank You Jesus! I am also continually learning a lot about myself... and as I do the more I just want to grow! The more I want to learn more not just about me, but more that I want to learn about our loving Father Jesus! What else can I say except that God is good! No, He is more than good... He is great... Nope, thats not it either... He is just sooooo amazing! Well I just finished watching the American Idol auditions... and now I...

I have some great news to share... And now its totally official, I have been working really hard at work and have been told by my boss and owner of Monsters Pizza that I was going to become the day shift manager, I stepped up and was doing all the responsibilites that the day time manager was doing, the thing was - it wasn't offical until today. Yahoo... so this is what happend. So I went in to work for 10am this morning to do help my boss out with things that needed to get done around the store before her and her husband headed off to vancouver to pick up the stores new pizza ovens. And as I was doing the dough count, my boss came up to me and told me to close my eyes cause she had something for me. I wasn't sure what it was, so I stood there really nervous with my hands streched out - and wondering to myself what it was and then she placed something in them. And it was my black shirt, so this now means that I am now officially the day shift manager! I was so excitied about ...

hey! so... I had this really crazy dream last night. I don't know if any of you who read this dream. but I do, sometimes I don't remember them. But this one woke me up, hence the reason why I am blogging this early... I woke up this morning, with my eyes filled with tears because I had this dream where I lost my bestest friend. Not that she got hurt, died and then that was it. But lost her as in her and I were no longer friends. And the reason why we were no longer friends all came down to the trust that her and I have for one another. I awoke from this dream feeling so hurt - lost - and very angry at the same time. I hope I don't get to a point in my friendship (any friendships that I have infact) that the trust gets broken and then friendships get ruined because of that trust. This reminds me of my relationship with God... I love God, but how much do I trust Him? How much do I step out in faith and trust Him with my life? Gods word says that we are to trust Him with every...

Have you ever heard of the saying "Zoot-Zoot?" Well my best friend and I have this implemented between the both of us, if we see that either one of us is feeling down, is having a bad day - in passing we will say the word "zoot-zoot" to each other. There is a meaning behind this, and I want to try and explain it to you. Ok, so there is this really amazingly awesome motivational speaker named Amanda Gore, she is just brilliant! And there was this point in her life where her step-dad had passed away and her step brother had everything left to him in the will. So one day he said to his step mother - Amanda Gores mom, "so when are you moving out?" they moved out - and found a place of their own, her mom lost everything that she had, house, cats, etc... and then one day several months and years later Amanda said to her mother "Mom, you just have to send love" and her moms like "what do you mean?" and she said - send love somehow from your he...

Just a quick post to wish you all a HAPPY NEW YEAR! Hoping that this year will be better then the last... Will try and blog soon. Michelle

Its 12:56am... And I just want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas!!! Enjoy this day, be blessed! with love and joy, Michelle

Check it out... I got a podcast up on here... its listed on the left hand side... i'll update the pod cast every now and then... so make sure to check it out! found it on the net, thought it was heaps cool blessings, michelle

So I had to go to the emergency room tonight - which totally so sucked... I was having chest pains all day today and it got to the point that whenever I took a deep breath it would send a shooting pain through my chest, I thought I was going to die.. Ok, not to that point, but it sure did hurt a heck of a lot. So went to the emergency room after work, and the dr said i have this thing called Costochondritis I've had this before in the past. So back on the meds I go. For all of you who don't know what it is, here is some info that the dr gave me on it. "Costochondritis is a syndrome of chest wall pain that is due to inflammation of the cartilage and bones in the chest wall. Costochondritis occurs when there is inflammation at the junction of the rib bone and breastbone (sternum). At this junction, there is cartilage joining these bones. This cartilage can become irritated and inflamed." So - back on the meds I go, and back to taking it easy - and trying to find things ...

Yesterday I was on day 16 in my purpose driven life journal - which I must say I absolutely love! Anyways as I was doing my entry for yesterday and reading what it had to say... I only had one word to say "wow!" so I wanted to share it with you... got more to share after it as well... so keep reading! "Our love should not be just words and talk; it must be true love. Which shows itself in action." 1John 3:18 (TEV) The best expression of love is time. Time is your most precious gift because you only have a set amount of it. You can make more money but you can' tmake more time. When you give someone your time, you are giving them a poartion of your life that you'll never get back. your time is your life. thats why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time. Whenever you give your time you're making a sacrifice, and sacrifice is the essence of love... "Father, help me to remember that life is all about love. Today I will take the time to love ...

So far this week,for me, has been full of thinking and some serious soul searching... I have been battling greatly with some issues in my life, however, God is faithful and just. And I am so thankful that the battle belongs to Him. and that I as a soldier can come home after a battle, feeling defeated and lay at His feet and pour my heart out to Him. I am thankful though for Him being in my life, because honestly - if it wasn't for God being in control, or bringing me some sort of comfort and filling my heart with love, I honestly don't know where I'd be without Him. I must be off to grab a bite to eat... so will try and blog again soon. Michelle

So I had to work tonight... and admist the crazy busy dinner rush, I was in the back quickly trying to get the dishes washed and all caught up, and then Jenny told me that there were some people up front that wanted to sing me a song... and I was like "what in the world are you talking about?" Well, the youth from the salvation army corps that I attend were there to sing me some christmas songs, you see this is how it works. If someone spends $5 on a christmas card that they made, they will deliever it for you and will sing that person a christmas card and then hand it to them when they are done singing. So I stood there - totally embarassed! Not sure of what to think at that very moment because it was crazy busy at work, and my fellow co-workers were laughing at me because someone bought me a card and sent these singers to me. After they finished singing to me, and handed me the card, I laughed and was actually less embarassed but more blessed that my "secret-sister...

Have you ever shared your feelings with someone before - like, not just how frustrated you are, angry that you were, or anything like that. But shared the feelings that you feel attracted to them? Yes, I have done this to a fellow believer, someone who is so passionate, in love with God and is truly an inspiration, someone who I truely thought I could see spending the rest of my life with. Well, of course one day down the road, not at this point in time, but later in years to come. but as you talk, and as you both share with one another, you come to a conlusion, you both like eachother. Then, all of a sudden. BAM it hits you, "actually michelle, I don't like you that way, I just liked you because you liked me." OUCH, ok, so my heart felt torn... my best friend gone. Done, ok... lets move on. God help me to. Thanks for that lesson. I know God has a plan for my life. A single life? No. I know that without a shaddow of a doubt. In time I know that God will send me the right ...

I really felt encouraged to write this, and this is souly for my friend... and to whom ever out there reads this, and finds them in this same situation... Love, Lust, do not be yoked with an unbeliever... God's word says this: 2 Corinthians 6:14-15 (NIV) "Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness? What harmony is there between Christ and Belial? What does a believer have in common with an unbeliever?" Honestly, when I know that scripture says something, but my heart feels a bit different then what Gods word says - I pray, hard, and I really do try to get others to pray for me and with me. So that I can get some clearity and understanding of what my heart feels towards the person that I am attracted to. I mean, love isn't as simple as one thinks (I don't believe it is anyways) the thing is, we can fall so easily in to lust, rather then having that true genuin...

I haven't had one of these "late-nights" like this for a really LONG time... weird. Today was a fantastic day... it was brilliant! I loved every moment of it, except towards teh end when I really had a comment made to me. Not too sure why this was made, but got me thinking. "be slow to speak, quick to listen, and slow to get angry." I found this really encouraging... I mean, even though sometimes people make comments that are hurtful, or comments that you don't understand why they said them... I gotta be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to be come angry... I love how Gods word says that! Very encouraging. Well I have to be up in about lets see 6hrs... so I guess I better at least TRY again and go to sleep... some window guys are coming over to finish installing my new windows... yay! but sucks cause they are coming SO early in the morning... honestly, why do they have to do that??? Ok, off to bed I go... Blessings, Michelle