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There were moments at work today - where I was laughing really hard, but then, for some reason there were moments where my heart was very heavy and sad. Not too sure why - so for a good hour or so - I was silent. Didn't really speak to anyone at work - not because I didn't want to - but I just was in deep thought and was searching my heart why I was feeling this way. Still - not sure why... Things that made my day... 1. "Michelle - I love you, you know that right?" 2. Got a hug from a friend. 3. Was able to share some pretty funny moments of my life with my co-workers and laugh about it. 4. God blessed me today - He always does... Ok I'm off - have a phone date tonight... If your reading this, no I don't have a boyfriend! no i"m not engaged... just some phone time set aside with a friend whom I haven't talked to in a long time... So if I feel up to it... I'll blog later on tonight... Blessings, Michelle

I ran out of coffee... doh... i have an american express visa, call tim hortons, but they don't even accept them... (well no credit cards at all!!!) YIKES what is up with that? I could totally go for a Tim Hortons Coffee this morning... I totally ran out... Ok - thats all I wanted to share... off to work I go... M.

Astrology - What is it? Its predictions by the planets or moon; horoscopes. (sometimes referred to as "observing times" in the Old Testament" The bible talks a great deal, LOTS about the detail of astrology - and it really makes it clear how its not of God. I have never in my life trusted in it... and when I got my horoscope sent to me tonight by a friend, I laughed at it... sure - it sounded like what my life is like these days but its so far from Gods truth. To my friend... my life isn't determined by the stars or movement of plants - my life is determined by God - His love and His plan for my life. And the greatest thing of all God talks about Astrology and how He condemns us for practicing it - for worshipping the sun, moon and stars. My friend is not saved... so she most likely wont understand this... our hearts are in two different points... I love and follow God... she doesn't. (but I do pray that she will see God in me and through the love that I have for...

Almighty Father... I love you! Bless me... I don't want to miss any blessings... and may my life bless you! Michelle

got home from band practice not too long ago... it was an amazing time of singing praises - and praying for one another... I love being able to go - share and just pray and allow God to minister to our hearts... It was a very encouraging and up lifting time... and now... I'm tired. I should header off to bed. Will blog again tomorrow. and for now... Good night! Michelle :)

So - First of all - I went driving tonight. It went amazingly well. I got to drive my Boss' brand new CRV. and it was such a smooth ride! :) Also - Well I'm learning about myself... God is teaching me... and is really revealing things in my life that I need to work on. Honesty is a big one... eg. if someone hurts me, rather then letting it continue on - to really stand up for myself and to say "hey, you need to stop." and share how I am really feeling... so this is all good stuff - but really challenging as well. AND to be honest - this usually isn't a really hard thing for me to do... I'm the type of person to share if something is bothering me... or if someone has hurt me I'll say it - but its like over these past several weeks, its like I have lost that and am finding it very difficult to share whats on my heart... God is working it out though. Anyways - I'm exhausted. It has been a long day... So off to bed I go! Will blog again soon... Michelle

So I have been studying hard for the past week to get my learners licence. I have been putting it off for the longest time... And after promising some friends of mine - from far away as Winnipeg, to really close to home - here in Williams Lake. I took the plunge... I woke up this morning - bright and early - and went to the big huge white building (thats what I call it!) hahaha... and went in - spoke to some guy paid to get my learners test done - got my eyes checked - got my picture taken (wow - kinda felt famous for a moment) and then the big thing came... I had to sit in this sort of cubical kind of place, with a computer - and had to start the test. I'm so thankful that the test was only 50 questions long... the thing that got me I had asked Steven - the guy who had took all my info etc. How many answers I was able to get wrong, he said you are able to only get 9 wrong - and if you go to 10 then you fail. i was like "wow!" So - I sit at this computer - start the test,...

I cried again today at work... Here's the deal - work was going really great... having lots of laughs - eating lots of donuts (a fellow co-worker brought some in) having good old Tim Hortons Coffee that I brought... mmmmm... Then this afternoon - the unexpected happend... Tonights my stepfathers birthday. Happy Birthday!... and so - I have plans to go for dinner tonight and to have some cake etc. then am headed off to the late nights how with my boss and another friend that i work with... so I'm pretty stoked about that... Anyways - I felt so hurt by someone today at work... and from that hurt I had started to get angry... so angry that all I could do was cry... I stopped making pizzas, told a fellow co-worker that i needed a minute... she knew what was going on and told me that it was ok and that she understood - she knew it was wrong what was being done to me. As I started to walk to the bathroom - I put my head down (i wear a hat at work so it blocked my face...) because I j...

few things that i want to share... work was crazy busy today - ended up working a 9 1/2 hr shift... yes, it was BUSY! And to be honest, I have never had to work over 8hrs at my job yet. Well not until tonight... BUT it was a blessed day. God is good... :) thought... when you go to bed at night - do you ever dream? you know have dreams and you may either be waken up by them - because they can be disturbing - or be waken up with fear? or be waken up and your crying and you feel absolutely utterly alone? Well I keep having this dream - and I prayed and really searched my heart and asked God what the dream meant... if you know me well - I have a pretty good imagination. And sometimes when I go to bed I don't fall asleep right away - I can lay in bed, lights off, in total darkness, and my brain will still be in overdrive thinking of the days events, or things that need to be accomplished the following day. Well I had this dream... and I'm with those people who are really close to me...

I was super-duper bored tonight... so I was searching the net and found some really cool sites... my fave is the songtapper... its kinda neat. Anyways here the cool links... the oliver bot is neat too... you can talk to him about Jesus... and he even responds! http://www.oliv erbot.com/ http://www.phonespelling.com/ http://www.snapbubbles.com/ http://www.songtapper.com/ off to bed i go... Michelle

So I was having this conversation with this guy that I know. We were talking about sex before marriage, and I was sharing with him what I believe, and what my personal convictions are. He's a fellow Christian - a brother in Christ... So when we were talking about this I thought that maybe we would have the same beliefs on this subject. However, I was quite wrong - our conversation actually ended up in a debate. He said: "well michelle, you gotta have sex before marriage - what happens if you marry the person who you like, but then - the sex is just horrible, and you don't find that out until after you are married." I laughed - which honestly I think bothered him... but I said... "So, you marry the person just because the sex is good? or do you marry the person because you are in love with them and want to spend the rest of your life with them?" He said "well michelle, its not just about that - the sex, its got to be good..." I reply again to Him ...

first of all th is is my 165th post! wow... I can't believe that I have posted that little... or is that a lot? either or - I'm going to make an effort to post more. I wonder how many posts I can get in before the new year... hhhmmm... Second... its my day off and its going to be a time spent baby sitting my neice melody... we are going to have fun today - but I am most definately tired!!! - oh-oh... someone is knocking at the door... I gotta go answer it, I think my neice is here already.... will blog more later today! :) michelle

Hey, I was checkin' out armybarmy.com's demo of the week... and there is a song on there by my good friend Curtis Cartmell & Xander Coleman... Called "Give all the Glory" Here's the lyrics to it... check out armybarmy.com for the demo of the week and listen to it... they have lots of other great songs on there too... ----- "We come to worship and give You all the glory We come to worship and give You all the praise We come to worship and give You all the glory We come to worship and give You all the praise Singin' Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah to the Lord Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah to the Lord (Repeat from top only Once) We bring You worship morning noon and night We bring You worship and Your spirit makes it right We bring You worship cause Lord You are worthy We bring You worship cause You died upon a tree Singin' Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah to the Lord Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah to the Lord Hallelujah, Hallelujah, H...

I got word tonight that some people are worried about me and are sad for some reasons... I didn't go to church on Sunday, and also didn't go to practice last night. I'm exhausted... its not that I didn't want to go - its just physically this past sunday I couldn't get out of bed. My body was longing for rest, my heart was just longing to hear God say " michelle, its ok, rest up - you need it. take a day off for you and i to be together." I felt it in my heart... I tried to call the church - no answer though... and this past thursday - yesterday, I didn't go to worship band practice - I could hardly walk after my shift at work. It was a physically demanding day yesterday, a day that I have never ever had to work before. My feet were swollen - every step that I took, my feet ached, it hurt to stand, it hurt to walk, it hurt to sit, my feet ached so much. I have been pushing my body to limits that it hasn't been pushed before. I was asked "miche...

God is speaking to me tonight... and had laid some people on my heart to pray for... and wow - I pray that God really pours out his mercy, grace, love, compassion upon these people and bless them hugely where ever they are! If your reading this... I may have prayed for you tonight... be blessed! be encouraged! know - that no matter what you are doing - no matter how busy your life is - no matter what circumstance you face - no matter how you are feeling at this very present time... God loves ya... and He wants nothing but to bless your life! Grace, Michelle

So... I was thinking today at work - how some people in this world might feel "forgotten" that they may have been forgotten by their friends, sisters, brothers, mothers or fathers... And the more I thought about it - the more I got thinking... "has anyone forgotten about me?" or better yet "have I forgotten anyone around me?" The greatest thing that came out of my thinking... even if we do forget those people who are important to us - and that we may lose touch... Well, Jesus never forgets about us... so lets not forget about Him... :) I must be off for the night. I hope your encouraged by this - to not forget those who are in your life - they do come and go... but also - stay close to Jesus... as He always stays close to you! Blessings, Michelle

So I went to bed super-duper late last night, which was ok... I still was able to get up early this morning - am baby sitting my niece melody right now. We're having fun she's just a rippin' around my place - singing, dancing, laughing, and watching some unknown cartoon on tv... :) So here's the deal... I was thinking - even before this morning, late last night - You know one thing that i remember while growing up? how hard it was for me to get close to people. I would take forever to "warm-up" to them, and after that warming up was done it was like we have been friends forever - but then some how along the way - the freindship would be ruined... they would get mad at me or me get mad at them (and to be honest thats how it usually went) I thought since I'm all grown up now, 26yrs old, that this wouldn't happen anymore - that the "warming up" to people would be done - its not, I'm still that way... and what about friendships being ruined? ...

"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint" Isaiah 40:29-31 (NIV) WOW! Just what I needed to read today.... Blessings, Michelle

its 11:58pm... I can't sleep... my heart aches so much... and as I sit here - I long for God to heal the hurt in my heart... and as I sit here - the tears just can't stop flowing... my heart aches... God - Your breaking me... But I ask that You'd heal me... mold me together. Lord - as I minister to those around me - please minister to me... I know you are... and I thank You for it. Michelle

Well I have many thoughts that are going through my mind, and even at this very moment - my heart is feeling some feelings that I have never felt in a long long time. I'm confused - hurt - frustrated. Someone said something to me today that shocked me. That hurt me. That frustrated me. But I have learned that God wants me to love those who persecute me... God help me to do this - it seems so hard sometimes, especially when sometimes the things that are said are just so ungodly - so not of you. Lord I pray for protection as I leave my house, as I am at work, as I am with my friends, as I am with my family, I pray God that where I go - people would be able to sense something different about me and that they would be able to experince the meaning of what true love is - your love... God use me... protect me... guide me. In Jesus name. Amen.

I got some gold fish given to me... Jez and Bubbles. Ones Gold, and the other Black. Way cool - my cat Spook, was ummm well a bit excited to say the least to see these new pets in my house... Oh well. She'll grow to love them. infact, she's staring at them right now - wonder if I can take a quick picture... let me try! Ok it worked... here are three that I just took.... its funny cause the last one she stopped and started to look at me... hahahaa. Well at leaset spook can look at the fish and be kept preoccupied... and now she wont be so bored she'll have something to keep her company. :) anyways i've got to run to the bank quickly... but just wanted to share bout my newest addition to my home... Will blog later... Michelle :)

Check out 3 cool things that I received late this afternoon... My boss came by work today - it was her day off - and she came and spoke with me and gave me a necklace with a Jesus fish on it... and 2 books... one is called 'Joy for a Womans Soul - Promises to Refresh Your Spirit." the other was "The Purpose Driven Life Journal" When she gave me these I was absolutely blown away... she thanked me for being a good friend and for being a very hard worker... God bless her! You know - I don't expect such gifts from people, but today I was just so blessed to receive them. And I told her that she really didn't have to do this - but she really felt in her heart of hearts that she wanted to show me how much I meant to her... again Father - Bless her heart. Anyways - i'm tired, my feet hurt, my body longs for some food - i'm hungry. BUT i really did want to share how awesome and how great God is - and how He is moving in peoples lives around me... i...

its 5:51am and I am awake... I can't sleep... I have too much on my heart... I felt disappointed yesterday morning - I prayed that my friend would come out to church, she was thinking about it - but she ditched out - went golfing instead. Ok - so I'm alright with that - hope she comes sometime though... another thing - I went to the lake yesterday afternoon for the day... it wasn't a great time at all. I don't understand my family - and I most of all don't understand why they treat me the way that they do. One day things will be fine. then the next its like I'm nothing... just another person in this lifetime to make fun of and degrade. I thank God though that He loves me with an unconditional love. I thank God that when I sit there and hear the things that are being said to me - and as they pierce my heart - He's right there, taking care of me... and most of all - I thank God that I don't have to listen to this stuff - that I can fight back with the trut...

I want to blog before I go to bed... Last night - I was on the phone talking with a good friend of mine - we must of talked for 3hours. I know - some of you are thinking "Michelle, what in the world could you talk about for 3 hours!?" Lots of stuff - half of the conversation was God using me to speak truth in to this persons life. Talking about selfpity - talking about how we sometimes get so caught up in feeling so sorry about things that had happend to us in our past - rather then focusing on God right now - and really allowing Him to bring forth the healing and in that healing is also forgiveness. But in order to let him bring for the healing - we need to be honest with ourselves and we need to let it go. We will never forget what had happend. The memories will always be there. And at times in your life - it could trigger it - and the memories could come back flooding your mind. For me - Something that I really strugged with was anger. And then from anger - it grew, I felt...

Well i watned to blog something before I head out for a couple of hours tonight with a couple of co-workers... So I worked today - it was a GREAT time laughing, goofing around, and then I was invited to go out with some people from work to go to one of the local pubs here in town. and honestly - for the life of me I don't really want to go - but my boss wouldn't let up... she kept saying "aww michelle - come on it'll be fun, and you won't be out for very late!" She wouldn't take no for an answer. So I'm going... we are suppose to be doing some sing! hahaha - this will be funny - I can't sing very well, and if I do go up on to the stage - I am sure going to make a fool of my self! But i'm sure - it'll be fun for all... all who are going to be sitting there drinking and laughing at me... Then out of NO WHERE , we started to talk about Church. She said that she wants to come... she isn't a beliver - doesn't go to church, doesn't l...