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Merry Christmas, Happy Boxing Day - and... well its not the new year... so that one will have to wait! :) Sorry for my lack of blogging - I know I know - there have been many people who I haven't spoken to in a while - I promise I will try my hardest to stay in touch better - things at work just have been so crazy! Been working heaps. Which is way good - but really has really made me cut down on my social time. :) which is ok - I'll have to just make up for that... Christmas was good - I really enjoyed my day off and was able to spend it with my family. I had some relitives come here for Christmas and also one of my sisters and her husband just arrived today to spend a few days here to hang out and visit before they have to head back to work... yay!!! Anyways God is teaching me quite a bit. Teaching me how to really tame my tounge! (which can be sooooo hard at times) but its been really good. Not just that but also my attitude... (which can sometimes really stink) But God has b...

Wow - I was thinking today of how this past year went by... There were many - and I mean many trails that I had went through. There were many many many laughs (oh and some are sooooo memerable) that I was able to share with some friends and family. There were also a lot of tears shared this year too... I realized today that I'm such a sappy - emotional kind of person... I have really been blessed this year by my friends and family. God has challenged me. He has helped me out so much this past year that I just can't thank Him enough... There were many days where I didn't really think I would make it through - but then - someone would come my way and make the day oh so much happier... As God has been working in my life - and challenging me I have learned a lot more about myself this past year then any other year. And even these past couple of weeks I have learned so much more about myself... This past year I have really taken a lot of things forgranted. But I am learning to b...

I was getting better - my cold was starting to go away and then... BANG it hits me hard again and I'm sicker then a dog! :( But its ok. I'm still working on getting better - been taking my vitamins - been drinking lots of fluids, been resting lots. I have to work tonight - but hopefully things will go good... its late night shopping at the mall - so that means for me my shift runs super late then usual. craziness... ah well.... I work tuesday and then I get Wednesday and Thursday off - sooooo looking forward to these days off! :) Well I'm working through this bible study on David - its amazingly awesome. I'm learning that David was not just a man after his own heart - but really a man after Gods heart.... He sure did make many mistakes in his life but from each one he learned something... thats the difference between David and I. The mistakes that I make in life can be the same ones over and over agian - I need to learn from them just as David did... Its such a really g...

Yup... see that picture? - I got a cold. It hit me hard last night - and today I didn't wake up today until late this morning when my mom had called - and after she called I went back to bed... and then later in the afternoon - my phone rang again - I thought it was my mom calling me again - but then it totally wasn't her - it was a friend of mine called about a kettle shift that I am doing on Thursday... After I got off the phone with her I ended up crashing for about another - then I finally got up had a shower then headed to work - which was great instead of only one person on today there were 4 of us cleaning cause we had a staff christmas party. Which was great! I got a pair of spongebob square pants pj's!!! I was sooooo very excited about this - infact I'm wearing them right now... :) they are flanel. very very comfortable! So I missed church today - I was actually quite sad about this as I have missed the past 3 weeks! I had to work last two weeks and this week...

well today was a great day - full of laughs - Oh its seriously a joy to just laugh - I LOVE it! :) Ok I was reading through a friends blog today - Karyn's... you can check it out here http://www.karynbaker.blogspot.com she has some very amazing insight and thoughts on scripture - and I love her last blog about distractions - being Christmas time and all - what the true meaning of Christmas is (kinda like how I posted in one of my previous blogs...) its a good read. check it out! Blessings, Michelle :)

As I have been trying to get all my Christmas shopping done over these past 2 days - I have never felt so stressed out about what gifts to get who - and how much money I should be spending on people... I thought back to a few years ago when I was at my sisters place in Kamloops and the whole family was there - my 2 sisters my 2 brothers my mom - stepdad - aunts and uncles - cousins, neices and nephews. I remember my sister Joanne and I were standing in the kitchen - eating a few snacks on Christmas eve, and she glanced in to the living room and had noticed how many gifts were under the tree - and how when we grew up we only at least 2 or 3 gifts and that was our Christmas and now the meaning of Christmas is changing every year. She told me "Michelle - Christmas is just not the same anymore - when we were kids we'd only get a gift or two - but now its so rediculous. they get 10 or more. And the prices of them - its just way too much - it takes out the meaning of Christmas....

Hey Everyone - I'm not too sure how many people will read my blog now - but thats ok! God has been really good to me these past few days - He is so gracious compassionate. And even though a few things have happend over these past few days to feel a bit discouraged in the fight - God held me up. He helped me to push through the discouragement and to keep my eyes set on Him. I am so blessed and thankful for everything that God has given me. For my life - for every single breath that I take. The deep breaths - the sorrow that I sometimes feel in my heart - The tears that I sometimes cry - even sometimes when things are just going so horrible and I can't even find the words to really express how I'm feeling - God is there. He blesses me through it all... Right now I'm really praying and focusing my eyes on Jesus - and working through some things in my life and mostly in my heart - so that I can focus more on Him and focus on the relationship that I have with Him. Its tough ...

Well I was at work yesterday and I was feeling quite spontanious and I had always really wanted to get something besides my ears peirced. So I went for it... I got my nose peirced... oh wow - it sure is cute - but it sure did hurt! It wasn't all that bad actually I got it done with a needle... not the gun (which I hear is a lot less painful!?) weird. Anyways what they do is take this clamp thingy - and then have this needle in the clamp and then they push it through your nose - and then after they do that they stick a twisty nose ring in (thats the part that hurt the most! craziness I know!) It was kind of funny because as I had made this decision - my friend who I work with said that she wanted to watch me get it done - she had hers done but with a gun - not the needle so she wanted to see it and just be there... so after we both laughed cause my eyes wouldn't stop watering - and then my one nostril was all red... and a bit bloody around the ring its self... but its all good n...

I tried to blog this the other night - but for some reason my internet wasn't working - so I had to blog it today... so here goes... Sorry for my lack of blogging. Life has been busy – been working lots and also trying to get my life a bit balanced out… Today was an amazing day – I got up this morning and read for a bit. I seem to be stuck in the Psalms right now. After I read and spent a bit of my morning with God – I went down to the corps and had coffee and chatted for a while with my friend – the conversation was very productive and quite positive. I was able to share with her about how life is going right now – the business and how I am also starting to take my relationship with God more seriously… After I had coffee with her we prayed and then I had ended staying for a while at the corps. I had hung out in the prayer room for a bit – I ended up grabbing the acoustic guitar and just sat in there and strummed on the guitar for a bit – after that I ended up coming home and tided...

My heart aches so much That all I want to have is to feel Your touch I want to feel You within’ me I want to experience the love that You have As time passes by I don’t really under stand why I feel this way… I just really want all this pain to go away. The tears they are streaming down my face And all I can do is sit here and wipe them away with my sleeve… The tears they sting my cheeks The pain just feels so deep. What is going on with me? God please help me – this I plead. I’m tired – I’m worn out. I can’t take it no more. It feels like my heart is being torn. The world wants me – But I know you want me even more. Why do I fight it – I hate myself for it.

I was going to post this late last night - but for some reason my wireless internet wasn't working. So I had to do it today... so here goes: ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Well I thought that I would blog tonight about some stuff that happened to me… I was listening to this song on my MP3 player tonight at work – I know I blog lost about work – sorry – but work is really all that I do these days – eat – sleep and work… Anyways – I was listening to this song and it really brought me to my knees – like I was sweeping and then I started to feel weak – and then I dropped to my knees and started to cry. For the past couple of weeks I have been trying to get to know myself – trying to figure out what I like and don’t like. And as I get to know myself I get to know how much crap and gunk there is in my life – and in the lives around me… I had a rough week – I almost got fired from my job at the mall because of what someone ...

I was reading some of the Psalms this morning - and got in to a really good discussion with a good friend of mine about the Psalms and how much I can relate to King David. David was a man who was totally after his own heart - rather then being a man after Gods heart. He however - at the same time wrote out these powerful prayers to God - pouring out his heart to Him, not being afriad to share what he was feeling... he didn't hold back - he was an honest man. He shared every feeling that he had felt - and I know sometimes I can be like that too - I can go grab one of my journals from my desk and then just pour out my heart to God on paper. But like David - I am a person after my own heart. I want that to change. I want to be a person after Gods heart - this comes to choices... and this is the choice that I am making - not tomorrow - not the next day or the day after that but right now. Jesus - May you come in - take control - empower me - break me Lord - mold me - make me more like ...

Jessie (my cat) and I had spent the night last night hanging out - as it was her last night sleeping here and our last night that we were able to hang and stuff... it was a great time - she was really cuddly and very freindly towards me which was really odd because usually she is totally the opposite. Well today after I had finished cleaning at the church - my mom had come and picked me up and then we went and got Jessie - I came inside my house - put her in her crate - and then we headed up to the SPCA - she enjoyed the ride up there and she even was totally purring too. When we got there I had actually started to cry - giving Jessie up was the most hardest thing that I had ever had to do (well in a long time) along with leaving Jessie at the SPCA I had left my fave sponge bob square pants blanket with her - the lady said that this would be a good idea because it'd help Jessie to adjust being away from me and the smell would remind her of me and of home. So Jessie is now there -...

Well today was a long day - I was pretty much tired all day today and wasn't feeling to great tonight but while I was at work I got to think about a lot of things... And as I was thinking about "things" this song came on that I have downloaded on my MP3 Player... its called Jesus Walks by Kayne West. He swares in the song a few times but a part of the song really stuck out to me... here's what it says: ------------------------------------------------------------------ God show me the way because the Devil tryna break me down Jesus Walk with me The only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now Jesus Walk And I don't think theres nothin I can do now ta right my wrongs Jesus Walk with me I wanna talk to God but I'm afraid cause we ain't spoke-n so long ------------------------------------------------------------------ As I listend to this song I had totally stopped what I was doing at work and I took my MP3 player out of my pocket and put it ba...

Well I got home from work around 10pm and then my friend mindy and her husband (they are newly weds) :) and I with a few other people went out to Denny's for coffee/pop infact - I think we all had pop! So anyways before we went out Mindy had asked if I wanted to join their bible study - its a group of young people in their 20's so I thought "sure - why not" So I'm going to start going on Tuesday. They have it Tuesdays and Thursdays but since I work Thursdays I can only go on Tuesdays. I'm really looking forward to being able to go and get back into studying Gods word - with others - praying and having that time of fellowship. I'm really super-duper looking forward to this... I mean its been a while since I have really been in a bible study group setting, so this should be really good for me... Thank You Jesus for having them ask me and invite me to join. Lord may this time be a time of reconnecting and reconciling with You and those around me. Go before me...

I'm kinda in a really sappy mood tonight... So I popped in some sappy music. Here's what I'm listening too... You're Still You - Josh Groban Hero - Enrique Iglesias We Belong Together - Mariah Carey Here Without You - 3 Doors Down Whiskey Lullaby - Brad Paisley Ft. Allison Krauss Over and over again - Nelly Ft. Tim McGraw I will remember you - Sarah McLachlan Everytime I close my eyes - Babyface How could this happen to me - Simple Plan Fix You - Coldplay yup... anyways I'm really unsure of what to write right now... so I think I'll go and post again later when I feel a bit more inspired... Michelle

Sorry I didn't post the picture last night... I totally posted my blog before I added the picture to it. my bad... so here it is! this is how I dressed up today - people were laughin' at me... Well here is a poem/prayer that I wrote earlier tonight... God why do things seem tough? Why do things feel so rough? My heart aches and longs for You I wish God that I didn't do what I did to You. I turned and walked away I got so weary and almost gave it all away... I want You God in my life I'm so sick and tired of all this strife. My life doesn't seem worth living for it feels Like a deep pain in my heart being cut by a knife. My heart aches - my mind races. So many choices to face... I want to live my life for You... I'm sick and tired of being told of what to do. God please speak to me in a way thats so real. Please take this pain away so that I can begin to heal. Goin' to bed... but will post again tomorrow... :) Michelle

I'm soooo stoked about halloween this year - I'm gonna be at my moms place and am going to be handing out candy... this isn't the cool part though - I'm dressin' up as a clown - but not the regular clown that i would dress up like every other year. instead i decided to be a dead clown someone who was being funny just one too many times... here's a picture... So yup anyways just wanted to post that... thats all for tonight I gotta go wash my face off was practicing putting it on tonight so that I can know how to do it for tomorrow... Happy Halloween everyone! Michelle

I was talking with my second mom the other day - my best friends mom who had adopted me and accepted me into her family when I lived in Fort Frances Ontario years ago... Her and I still stay in contact and she really was there for me to talk to the other day when I was feel so depressed and was tired of life... We were talking about spiritual things - where things are at and how I have been feeling. We shared with one another and the things is her and I can relate to one anohter - even though we don't always see eye to eye on things all the time. While we were speaking I had a small glimpse of how torn i'm feeling. I feel as if I'm always being hurt - being swayed or moved by peoples opinions of me. And most of all being very wishy-washy and always trying to please everyone... believers and non... I think what frustrates me the most right now is that I don't know what my likes are... what my dislikes are what my priorities are... and what my beliefs are... It feels like...

Well - I haven't blogged in a while. I just haven't really felt inspired to write much because I have been so self-focused on my life and so not focused on God. If I were to write it would have just been depressing words. However today - I woke up with a smile on my face - looking forward to this new day; was looking forward to my day off of work - but I get to work from 6-10pm tonight get to strip and wax some floors, I am looking forward to this time. I get to do something that I enjoy doing - plus this afternoon I get to relax and spend reading my bible - which I haven't been doing for a while and have allowed myself to wallow up in self pitty; depression and just being so self focused rather then focusing on God. I was reading this morning about the fear of the Lord - When I think about the fear of the Lord it brings back memories of having fear of my Father - and since having fear of my Father - I have fear of my Heavenly Father. Not the good type of fear that we are ...

I just got home from work not too long ago - I'm really not feeling well at all. But I really wanted to post some stuff thats on my heart - and actually - a soul searching assignment that I am doing... God as my Father - Who is He? - How can I relate to Him? God is the alpha and omega the beginning the end. He died on the cross for my sins - all my sins. From the way that I speak - swearing - gossip- slander. He died so that I could have eternal life... everlasting life - to live in heaven with Him. How do God and I relate? We actually relate on many different levels... God mourns - He grieves - He gets angry. There are times in my life where I am mourning - where I have deep grief - there are many times where I get angry. I have had absolutely no Father figure in my life. When I grew up my Father was never around - and when he was around he use to always hurt me... physically and emotionally. I grew up hating any man in authority. I despised my father for many years for the things...

I sit here and am thinking of my life - and thinking and wondering where things have gone wrong - why I have done things - and why I haven't done other things... Today was a very emotionally draining day. It got to a point where I really felt physically sick because of things that were going on around me - certain situations with certain people and what not... Even sitting here right now at the computer is making my head just pound from the brightness from my laptop screen... my eyes are killin' me... I haven't slept a good nights sleep for a few weeks now. I'm tired... physically emotionally and I'm sure I'm starting to get mentally tired too because I have a hard time just thinking things through - my mind is pre-occupied by so much other stuff. I'm trying to understand a lot of things in my life right now - relationships is a big one. Esp. my relationship with God... who is He to me? How do Him and I relate? all that kind of stuff... its deep and has my b...

Well you read it right... its currently 2:15am and I am bloggin! Craziness I know... I just am unable to sleep - have a lot on my mind... I went out for a bit earlier tonight - kinda really boring stuff. Just walked around town, in the rain, with a few friends, chatted - laughed and thats really about it. I worked today too - which was ok. I do have to share some funny stuff with you about work though - ok, so Yesterday (Friday) my friend was on her lunch break in her office and the door was closed so I thought that I would pull a funny and duct tape her in to her office - I taped the door shut... (i should have taken a picture) anyways it didn't take her very long to get out of the office when she was done - we laughed about it - then right after my shift (i was done at 5pm) I went to my locker and it was duct tape shut - not just a little duct tape - but... A LOT! It took me like 10 minutes or so to get into my locker - I laughed so hard about that - so I went back to my friends ...

Today was a really rough, emotional, tiring day. Gods speaking to me boldly... I need to respond... need to repent... and most of all need to repair things - I need God's help doing this... I was on armybarmy's blog tonight and something I read reminded me of a very serious conversation that I had today... "The Greatest Danger Awaiting You on the Field is your own personal failure to live a holy life." Wow - that quote in itself is deep... is God trying to show me something? Trying to speak to me in a way that I will understand more? Michelle

Today was just a really strange day - had some pretty interesting conversations and had been able to think and lay some stuff out on the table with a few people. my life right now seems to be so unbalanced - I am trying to figure out a balance for it. And I know that obviously - God is the answer. But have you ever been in situations and make them more difficult then they seem to be? I'm the type of person who makes situations maybe more difficult then ever. I over analize and pick it apart and mostly try to justify everything. If I don't see why its wrong - I try to justify it. This is a bad thing for me... and I am starting to see and understand - well sort of understand - but really mostly see - that I need to really stop making life so complicated and hard. I was talking to a good friend of mine today and I shared with her how life is just so depressing. She even agreed with me. I mean life can be so depressing, and these past few days I have found everything to be depressi...

I was cleaning out this little hen that my mom got me for house sitting for her this weekend - its also my thanksgiving dinner as well. Anyways I took it out of the package and was following along with the cooking instructions because I have NEVER ever cooked one of these things before - so I had to clean it out and stuff and I was like - OK THIS IS SICK! - I Can't look at them the same anymore - I had it in my hand and it reminded me of vegitarians and how maybe after this meal - depending on how good it actually tastes - that maybe I should be come a vegitarian! I mean - poor little chicken is cooking in my oven... anyways I just thought it was so disgusting to clean - I think thats why I always come to my 'rents house for thanksgiving dinner - or not have thanksgiving dinner because I don't like the cleaning part of the bird... yucky... Anyways gotta go finish cooking... oh if I did have my digital camera here I'd take a picture of it and show you what I was doing wi...

Well I'm not feeling too well today - I just woke up about 15min. ago. And its 2:45pm. I think these past couple of days have really caught up to me and I just really needed the sleep - So I missed church today. Which is a bit of a drag. I was looking forward to going but when my alarm went off this morning I decided to sleep more instead. Its not very often that I get to sleep in anymore - working 7 days a week is a bit tough on the body. So I think I may have to figure a few things out yet and see what to do... Anyways I have to go get ready for work... but i'll post more later. michelle

Sorry for my lack of bloggin'. I have been quite busy and I just haven't found the time to actually take a minute - or two - to sit down and quickly type up something for my blog. These past 3 days (or so) have been quite hectic... And not sleeping very well has been really catching up to me. So I don't think this blog is going to be very long - as after working all yesterday 8-5pm at the mall then 5:30-7:30pm at another job then today from 8-4pm at the mall I'm a bit pooped out. So I'm house sitting for my mom - she's gone for the weekend to Kamloops for thanksgiving. So this thanksgiving I'm having by myself. The coolest thing though is she got me a little wee ganish hen - and a box of stuffing so I can stuff it - and also some potato's and some other goodies that I she thought that I would like. OOOHHHHH... and she got me one of my favorite Thanksgiving treats... PUMPKIN PIE! mmmmmm I have already had a slice (ok 2 slices) of it... and of course heape...

first of all - Dasani Raspberry water is YUMMY! My friend Christine and I were both drinking it at the same time! boy oh boy did we ever laugh really hard tonight. I think I should become a comedian! :) Ok - I was listening to some songs tonight and this song came on and it was really good I mean there are some songs that totally drive me crazy - but I like this song... Its even by Micheal Jackson! (yup - i'm blushing as I write this cause it really is a good song!) Its called "Man in the mirror" Here's just parts of the song that I like... "I’m gonna make a change, For once in my life It’s gonna feel real good, Gonna make a difference Gonna make it right... (then it goes on to...) I’m starting with the man in the mirror I’m asking him to change his ways And no message could have Been any clearer If you wanna make the world A better place Take a look at yourself, and Then make a change." You see - I think this is one great illistration, of how God looks at u...

Ah tonight was a great laugh - my friend Christine and I totally used our webcams to chat tonight and in the middle of a conversation she let this BIG HUGE sneeze go... so she is now called the Sneeze Lady - so any of you who know here in New West... Make sure you call her.... "Sneeze Lady" Bless you! (no pun intended!) Michelle PS: ok it wasn't as bad as the picture... but it did look soooo funny! :)

I was at work monday - cleaning the corps - I just happend to be mopping right in front of the bookshelf and I had glanced up at it and this booked popped out right at me its called: "Slaying the giants in your life." I stopped - stood there looked at the book for a minute - then put my mop down and went and grabbed the book off the shelf - as I flipped through the pages I really felt that this was the book for me to read. Here's what it covers: Fighting your fear Destroying your discouragement Liberation from loneliness Winning against worry Guarding against guilt Taming your temptation Attacking your anger Resisting your resentment Disarming your doubts Postponing your procrastination Facing your failure Journeying beyond jealousy WOW! I mean - Ok if you know me quite a bit - you'll realize a few things about me - I have fear in my life - I am discouraged a lot - get lonely - worry about many things - feel guilty sometimes - temptation is something i fight against -...

Currently Listening To: Simple Plan - Untitled I was listening to current fave song of all time - Untitled by Simple Plan - they are an amazing band - This song is totally way cool. I absolutely love it. Today was kind of a rough day - trying to balance out my life and I'm having such great difficulty in doing it... So I really need Gods help with this. On another note... I was reading a friends blog today (http://www.karynbaker.blogspot.com) and she shared of how words are so powerful. And as I read through it; it totally reminded me of some certian words that have been spoken to me - prayed over me and how powerful they are. And how encouraging they were to my heart and how much they blessed me. A few years back I had went up as a Leader to Youth Councils and Karyn along with some of the 614 Vancouver gang came to lead Youth Councils and I remember there was such a huge time of praise and worship and we were given the opportunity to go up and get some prayer if we needed - leader...

I came across this tonight, its quite interesting - and it relates to my previous blog - about living a life that is pure, holy and true... “It is those who 'hunger and thirst after righteousness' that are to be 'filled.' A Pure Heart will esure a Holy Life. What do I mean by a holy life? It is a life that meet the requirements and ensures the fulfillment of the promises of this Holy Book; a life fashioned after the life of the Lord Jesus Christ. Is not such a life desirable? Is not a man who is able to live out his religion before his family, before his workmates, and beofre the world highly privileged? Will he not be a means of blessing to those around him whichever way he turns? Look at him. He is honest and faithful in all his worldy dealings; in his shop factory home or wherever he may come. He has an honest heart. he is true to his promises. His word is his bond. You can trust him either in or out of sight. He has a ture heart. He is industrious. He neither shirks...

Sorry for my lack of blogging these past couple of days - just haven't been feeling well and also for some reason my internet connection that I get wasn't working - but its all good now! Phew! So this is what I was planning on blogging last night but couldn't get on the net... Thursday Sept 29th 2005 'O Lord, I am calling to you. Please hurry! Listen when I cry to you for help! Accept my prayer as incense offered to you, and my upraised hands as an evening offering. Take control of what I say, O Lord, and keep my lips sealed. Don't let me lust for evil things; don't let me participate in acts of wickedness. Don't let me share in the delicacies of those who do evil.” Psalm 141:1- 4 Tonight Jessie and I cuddled again on the couch - and I grabbed my bible and opend it up again to the Psalms - I'm reading through them again. As I was sitting there and petting Jessie and reading - out loud - (I have to read out loud or I get too distracted with all the other ...

Well since i have been staying at my moms place since i had my day surgery - she took me back to my place to see how my cat was doing - well my cat missed me lots! she had grabbed one of my sweaters - and was curled up in it right by the door. awwww it was so cute to see her there waiting for me. i have missed her heaps too - Jessie - is her name. Her and I have this routine every night and since I haven't been at home we have both missed it. She sleeps with me every night - either lays across my chest - or my kneck - or lays right beside me and shares my pillow. it has been wierd not sleeping with my cat over these past couple of days - I had even asked my mom if I could bring the cat here but her answer was "NO!" my cat is a little on the crazy side and my parents probably couldn't handle her. Anyways i'm feeling a bit better today - for some odd reason my arms hurt - my stomache and back hurt still which is normal for what i had done. but anyways - my arms are ...

Its the day after my day surgery - feeling a bit groggy sill and a bit of discomfort and a bit of pain - but the good news is - so far everything is good. I'm waiting now for some test results that need to come back they had to remove a small polyp from my uterus about the size of the tip of my baby finger - like from the joint to the tip. The Dr mentioed something about how polyps can be cancerous - but its unlikely that it is. But still has to send it off for testing and all that kind of stuff. craziness. I'm praying - along with all my prayer warriors that its nothing... and that God will bring forth the healing that needs to be done. Thanks for sticking by me on this. you guys are amazing! Michelle

Hey everyone - it is exactly 11:58pm. I just had my last glass of water before midnight... and had some mega chowin' down time too before the cut off time! phew. I just made it. :) I was chatting with a friend of mine on the phone tonight - it was quite brief and stuff and just chatted about my day surgery and stuff - I'm so blessed to be covered by so much prayer. I'm not quite nervous yet about going under - but nervous about the out come and what the results of everything will be. I think thats the nervous part of it all. But God is in control right? Totally! So I'm trusting in Him right now to do the healing that needs to be done in my body. I'm taking Mon - Tues off of work, and I was told by the dr. that I may need to take an extra day or so off on top of that and let my body rest. So I'm going to see how things go and how I'm feeling afterwords - its not major surgery or anything. pretty simple and easy stuff - just the discomfort and all that kinda s...

Ok... I was TOTALLY planning on sharing more from my last post. BUT I thought that tonight I would share something on the funny side. You see yesterday I worked from 9-6:30pm... worked an hour and a half over time - it was good though but my feet were totally killin' me... and today I worked an 8 hour shift. My feet were killing me even more tonight - so I had decided to saok my feet - then I decided forget that I'm gonna have a bubble bath. So as I was preparing the water and bubbles my cat - Jessie - decided that it would be fun to play with the bubbles. So she was sitting on the edge of the bathtub and I just watched her then all of a sudden she jumped from the tub to the toilet - and the lid to the seat happend to be up - which its usually down cause I don't want her drinking from the toilet. So anyways - she kinda got a bit wet. She was in the toilet! LOL it was really funny stuff - I don't think she will be jumping from the tub to the toilet for a while... Anyways...

Last night I was unable to sleep - I think the main reason for that was for having a large double double coffee at like midnight! my bad... Anyways hanging out was heaps fun - and once I got home I just chilled out - I grabbed my guitar and had started to write a song for a friend of mine... I wish I knew how to post songs on here so that I could let you guys hear it... anyways its a good song. I'll probably spend the night trying to figure it out! I was thinking last night of how life is - I mean life can be just so confusing - sometimes life can cause you to have so much heartache and sometimes its hard to even understand why... (to be continued...)

Tonight I was at work - pondering more of the things that I am most passionate about. And I'm not just passionate about music - but I think the most thing I'm passionate about is writing. I love to write out my thoughts - feelings - and love to share it. I don't at all want my blog to be a place where I just write and vent on how I'm feeling - but I would love it to be a place where I can share what is going on in my life - straight from my heart. I think that matters the most. As I share and write - about the things that are going on in my life - I am hoping that some people may be able to relate to how I feel - how I see things. Its going to be sometimes deep personal things. Sometimes it may be just short blogs about joy - laughter. But then again they can be depressing or angry. It can really vary. For some reason or another - I had deleted all my previous posts thinking that I would start off fresh and let the readers of my blog have maybe something interesting to ...

Ok I was thinking today what am I most passionate about? Well I LOVE listening to music... So tonights blog is going to be about MUSIC! And so... my current fave top 10 list is as follows (and I'll share why too!) :) 1. Daniel Powter - Bad Day "So where is the passion when you need it the most - Oh you and I - You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost - Cause you had a bad day - You're taking one down You sing a sad song just to turn it around - You say you don't know - You tell me don't lie - You work at a smile and you go for a ride - You had a bad day - You've seen what you like - And how does it feel for one more time - You had a bad day - You had a bad day" 2. Sarah Connor - Bounce "Bounce baby out the door I ain't gonna take this no more - Bounce baby out the door Get up and move Don't make me act a fool Just bounce." 3. Avril Lavinge - Why "I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away - I can feel...

Hey everyone... hope you enjoy my new - fresh - gonna be up to date as possible blog - that is going to be thought provoking - heart felt - encouraging - and also challenging at the same time. Enjoy reading! Michelle