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- God has been teaching me about not being so materialistic, not to be so self focused. to put my full faith and trust into Him and not just know that He is Lord BUT to believe that He is lord of my life in my heart. - God give me spiritual wisdom and understanding so that I may grow in my knowledge of you. - God I pray that my heart would be flooded by light so that I can understand the wonderful future you have promised me. - God I pray that You'd help me live a life of obedience, trusting you and making you the first love of my life, you will provide for me. May this comfort me, knowing you are always here. - God I thank you that you accept me the way that I am. That there is nothing about me that you hate (besides when I sin) Thank you God for being the Lrord of my life. THank you for being so gracious and compassionate towards me. - God I ask that you'd continue to teach me more about Grace, more about compassion, being slow to get angry and to be so rich in love. - God pl...

once again, sorry for my lack of bloggin'. There has been so much going on in my life - God is good, he has been blessing me over these past few weeks. Met a great guy - in whom I am now dating. He is such an amazingly awesome Godly man. I am blessed. I am working at a job that I love. I go to a church that is my home... God is great. He is teaching me more and more about sacrificing things in my life and putting him first. He is teaching me more about love, being more and more kind and gentle. there is just so much going on I can't even begin to explain it all... I'm tired - worn out - kinda need to get some sleep though. so will blog again tomorrow and share about this show that i have been watching "God or the Girl"... Blessings, Michelle

dunno what to really blog about - but yeah. I'm bloggin' anyways. :) So today was an alright day - pretty tired. Just a long day, and tomorrow is going to be another long day, and same with sat. But its all good because my friend is coming to visit me. And we are spending the weekend together. its going to be actually very super-duper exciting! I am blessed to have such amazing friends, I just can't say that enough. Works going ok. Been praying hard for those who I work with, and not just that but asking God to help me to be a great example of who he is to them. Trying to always strike up some sort of clean conversation, spritual stuff. so God is good... being totally challenged this week as well, which is always tough but always good at the same time. anywho - i'm tired so I'm headin' to bed. many blessings, Michelle

Hope this picture/prayer that I made shows up... if not will have to repost it... Blessings, Michelle

I feel so extreamly blessed tonight! I had to work today - but tonight towards the end of my shift things got pretty frustrating, and I was on the verge of breaking down. However God gave me the strength and courage to get through it. I am blessed by those who I work with. Really I am. I am so thankful also for God allowing me to be apart of the worship band that I play on at the corps that I attend. I am blessed by the talents, and so very thankful for God has given them to me! I am thankful that God is also placing a huge hunger in my heart and spirit to read His word and to really dig in deeper to it. I am thankful that God is with me now, and for always. I am thankful that God has blessed me with such amazing friends who have stuck by me through the thick and thin of things, who are always there for me no matter what, people who I can call up - or even text message at any hour of the night. Bless their hearts Jesus! " FOREVER You are Faithful, FOREVER You are Strong, FOREVER ...

Well I've had a really great, amazing day today... Got up bright and early - went to church, which was awesome. We had a corps potluck afterwords which the food was just amazingly awesome! So, I got some news to share... its great actually... Next Sunday (well the sunday thats comin' up - one week today in fact - hahaha) I'll be playin' the drums at church. I'm so stoked about this. Very excited as well. So looking forward to what God will be doing through me as I play - and I get reconnected and all that stuff... it feels good to be back. Not just playing the drums, but back at church in general. It feels good to be back on track with my relationship with God. Thank You Jesus for the work that you are doing in my life! I love ya for it... continue to do more. - help me be obedient. Help me to not do things on my own, help me to walk out my faith. I ask these things in Jesus name. Amen. Well I must be off, a long day a head of me tomorrow - but I will blog much more...

I was thinking today alot about friendship - well actually over these past couple of days. Have been thinking about specific people in my life who have truly blessed me by the way that they treat me, respect me, love me for who I am. People who have encouraged me, challenged me, and have been there through all the good times and bad times in my life... I also got thinking about the friendships that are unhealthy, friendships that make me feel down and depressed, friendships that have no respect, no love, no encouragement, friendships that have a lot of judgement and condemnation... As I got thinking and searching my heart on friendship I realized that I don't click with every single person on the earth, we all don't. There are people who I know in my life that drive me absolutely crazy, but I don't treat them horribly. I treat them as humans, with respect and love. I got thinking of how I can be a loud an obnoxtious person and how most of my friends love it cause I always m...

I know I blogged earlier this morning and I said I was a bit grumpy... but I'm in a better mood now. I had a bit of a nap after I worked this morning at the mall - I think I was just grumpy cause of a huge lack of sleep! Also I think I'm getting another cold again - its been so freezing cold out and my basement suite gets super-duper cold at night. And I just actually got over a cold and now I feel it comin' back again - maybe it never really went away? I dunno... ah well... its ok. I'll survive! So there are some things I'm really praying hard about... I haven't really been going to church that much because well - I have been sleeping in, have been feeling like crap, and have been pretty depressed and down in the dumps the past couple of months. Its kind of wierd cause when I was at work this morning this person that I work with actually had made a comment about me being depressed, they have noticed a change in me. So I have to have some sort of change in my li...

...grumpy today. But life goes on right?

I realized that I need more paitence in my life!!! I got mad at work tonight - only out of frustration with the construction workers who are doing a whole pile of crazy stuff at the mall... I was suppose to work from 4-10pm, but tonight they were doing some major work upstairs so I was only able to do half of the mall - so I have to go in bright and early tomorrow morning to finish up the mall. I'm not really impressed with it cause I'll end up putting in a 10hr day, but I know that I need to have a bit more paitence and to show a bit more grace to them. I know thats what Jesus would do so thats what I have to do... My job at Monsters Pizza ROCKS - seriously. I'm learning so much. I was sharing in an email with a friend of mine of how much I just love the job - how much I just feel so welcomed, feel encouraged, can be myself, laugh when I want to laugh and most of all I can just be me. Its awesome... I love it! Thank You Jesus for my jobs, Thank You God for the time that I ...

ok - first of all - Bakes thanks heaps for the cool link to that site - I'm soooo gonna check it out and do some more quizes and try and post em up on here (of course when I have a bit more time on my hands) this is gonna be a short blog... i'm tired. had a super-duper long day at work... but, had my first training day at monsters pizza - it ROCKS! i love it, i really really really do!!! I learned how to: 1. Make Dough 2. Make Pizza's 3. Answer the phone and take orders 4. Run the till yup heaps fun. seriously - the girls that i work with are awesome too, we had heaps of fun laughing - and working of course, at this one point of my shift we were all just kinda standing around chattin' and my boss went in to the cooler and I had grabbed a green pepper and stuck it in my nose and when she came out I shot it at her - we laughed so hard about it. so laid back and heaps of fun... lol I guess you don't want any of my pizza that i make - you never know where the green pepp...

first of all... brrrrrr its soooo cold out - I just got home from work. I ended up walking cause I thought I could use the walk tonight - and also I do enjoy walking home after being in the mall for so many hours cleaning... its good to be home now. Its so warm... :) hhmmm second. I start my new job tomorrow - I am SOOOOOO looking forward to it. I got my uniform earlier tonight. Red t-shirt and a cool baseball cap. Yay! :) hahaha... I'm so gonna be a pizza lady for a while. :) too funny... Anyways ummmm what else... well I am still reading my book by Max Lucado. I haven't been able to read it for the past 2 days though cause been busy with work and trying to clean up my house (is a DiSaStEr ZoNe!!!) LOL but ah well... it's slowly starting to get better. Just gotta get those dishes in the sink washed - oh how I dread washing dishes! I so need to invest in a dishwasher... :) Ok I'm tired - I gotta throw some cloths in to the laundry then call it a night. Gotta work early ...

my good friend Karyn had this on her website - so I thought that i would give it a try... here's mine... You Are 21 Years Old Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. What Age Do You Act? hahahahaa - got a good laugh out of that one! :) I act 21 - but am going to be 26 on March 20th... cRaZiNeSs!!! :) gotta go to sleep its 3am... i know! I am still awake!!!! Blessings, Michelle :)

I'm currently reading this book by Max Lucado - "When God Whispers Your Name" I pulled it off my book shelf last night and started to read it and now I just can't seem to put it down... its a really super duper good read!!! "Pray all the time. If necessary, us words. Sacrilege is to feel guilt for sins forgiven. God forgets the past. Imitate him. Greed I've often regretted. Generosity - never. Never miss a chance to read a child a story. Pursue forgiveness, not innocence. Be doubly kind o thte people who bring your food or park your car. In buying a gift for your wife, practically can be more expensive than extravagance. Don't ask God to do what you want. Ask God to do what is right. Nails didn't hold God to a cross. Love did. You'll give up on yourself before God will. Know answered prayer when you see it, and don't give up when you don't. Flattery is fancy dishonesty. The right heart with the wrong creed is better than the right creed wi...

I had a great chat with a good friend of mine today and I was able to share some things that have been on my heart recently. Missing out on great opportunites to be involved in ministry. Over the past 2 years I have had felt heart tuggings. I had the opportunity to go work along side my brother and sister in Christ - Curtis and Ray Cartmell in Melfort Sask. to help with their school of prophets. I also had the opportunity to go and be apart of the ignite team as well. However my heart tuggings didn't go to far... I was so hindered by what I thought others thought where I was spiritually, where they thought I should be, rather then really listening to God and stepping out in faith and doing it. I feel like I have really missed out on being able to be in some good ministry and being able to grow spiritually, being able to deepen my relationship with God even more. I really wish that I didn't stand back from the heart tuggings that I had felt. I really wished that I could have wen...

I haven't blogged for a couple days - have been sick - have a terrible cold and actually it seems to be getting worse! Which by the way - so sucks. Anyways - Today I went to church it was amazing. There were some guest speakers so had shared about their time in Africa. They shared so much about the children and how they get sold in to slavery. It was quite sad to watch the film clips that they shared with us - and most of all sad to know that this sort of thing is happening all over the world - not just Africa. Well tonight I had to go and clean this office for this guy that I know - I usually only clean it when he goes out of town and doesn't have the chance to do it. So anyways I was - like always - listening to my MP3 Player and this song by Rob Thomas was playing and I actually had it on repeat. "Just let me hold you while you're falling apart, Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down" (Rob Thomas - Ever the same) You see there are so many times in my...

At this point of time in life I want someone to confide in - talk to - share my inner most secrets with - share my heart yearnings - share my heart aches with. I want to learn how to do this with God because really - I'm starting to get a bit frustrated with trying to reach out to people - and try and call up or email and me being the only one doing this... I have started to question what friendship is all about... what is it about? Does it just go one way? Does one person just see how the other is doing? is curious about what is going on in their life? hhmmm How does friendship work? from my understanding friendship works both ways - we are suppose to talk to one another - support and encourage one another. To be honest I don't - even really rememeber the last time I had heard an encouraging word spoken to me - I heard suggestions - heard challenges. But encouragement... I don't really recall. I hope and pray that people aren't giving up on me... that God isn't. I...

I'm learning that a relationship with God is not just suppose to be a mind God relationship. My relationship with God needs to be with my heart! As I sat with a good friend today chatting I shared of how things are right now - things aren't really going anywhere - You see - I can confess with my mouth that I believe in Jesus - I get it in my head. But there is this huge gap between my head and my heart. I want the relationship to be in my heart. There are so many things in my life that I run from. I'm so afraid of rejection. So afraid of being hurt. So afraid of love... how to love - how it'd feel to be loved. I have never felt real love before. I don't know how it feels to feel "loved" - But I want to experience the love that God has for me... and most importantly - I don't want to go to hell. And more importantly then that - I don't want God to give up on me... or forget me. I know sometimes I forget about him - and give up on Him - But I need he...

It was funny - tonight I got a bit bored so I had decided to see if I can find some christian chat rooms to check out - so I went to google and tried to google christain chat rooms - I found some. However I have realized that there are a lot of people in Christian Chat rooms who just like to start up arguements, are actually in there not to "Chat" but are in to the whole cyber sex stuff. I don't understand why or how someone could be like this and do this stuff. Its so immoral! I was chatting with this guy - I wasn't sharing any personal information about myself but we were totally talking about the bible then he had asked me why I like to chat - I told him - "I actually hardly ever come in to chat. But got a bit bored tonight so thought I would come in and check it out again" I had asked him why he likes chat... you want to know his answer??? "I like to seduce like minded females" Yikes! I had quickly logged off of that chat and couldn't at al...

I was at work tonight - cleaning at the mechanic shop that I clean once a week - well I of course had my MP3 player with me and I had this song that I put on there - and here it is... its my current ALL TIME FAVE song at this very moment... here's the lyrcis to it.. One Thing - Finger 11 Restless tonight Cause I wasted the light Between both these times I drew a really thin line It’s nothing I planned And not that I can But you should be mine Across that line [Chorus:] If I traded it all If I gave it all away for one thing Just for one thing If I sorted it out If I knew all about this one thing Wouldn’t that be something I promise I might Not walk on by Maybe next time But not this time Even though I know I don’t want to know Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds [Chorus x2] Even though I know I don’t want to know Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds Even though I know I don’t want to know Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds [Chorus x3] If I do say so mys...